As he was tossing and turning, and keeping me awake. I sat up and looked at him. He looked like the most beautiful and precious child. It was one of those moments where you look at your child in wonder and amazement at how perfect and awesome they are.
Through the years I have had those moments with all my children, but this time was different. Maybe it is the difference between sons and daughters, but my mind went to something I had never thought of before.
I began to wonder how many times God looked upon his son. His precious son peacefully sleeping and overflowed with Love for him and his perfection. A beautiful 3 year old, 5 year old, 20 year old son.
How did God feel knowing his son's purpose for being on Earth. Knowing that all the love, compassion and mercy his son would show the world would be thrown back at him by so many. We all try to protect our children from pain, rejection, scorn. God knew the day would come. A day when the weight of the sins of BILLIONS of people would be shouldered by his son. He knew on that day, instead of rushing to his aid and making it all better, he would have to turn his back on his only son.
God can not look at sin. When all the filth and darkness and shame of our sins were being paid for in his son's blood, and his son was crying out to him, He had to turn away.
He let his opinion be known. He caused hours of darkness, an earthquake, he ripped the fabric on the temple doors, he rolled away the stone doors from tombs of Christians. Nothing compared to my fury to you if you caused any misfortune for my son.
In my simple mind I can not see the big picture. I can only see my little guy snuggled up in bed with his Daddy, and pray the best for him always.
Make sure you fully understand and appreciate the sacrifice made for you. Christmas is about the birth of a wonderful baby, who did awesome and wonderful things his entire life, and then died a HORRIBLE death.
Why is all sin equal to God? It was all paid for in the same way. Jesus was not struck with the cat of nine tails softly when it came to my sins. Their was a thorn in his crown for my sins. Their were agonizing minutes on the cross specifically for my transgressions. I claim them. Make sure you claim yours.